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Friday, 17 December 2010

The public holiday that was

For any non-saffa readers yesterday was a public holiday - day of reconciliation. My day started early, for some strange reason I woke up before 08h00 :-/ Sleeping late is something I enjoy a lot, so it seemed that the day wasn't off to a good start. Added to that it was raining, heavily, so there was no getting laundry done either. After watching some cooking shows, while Jerall played some pc games we went hunting for lunch. The lunch hunt turned into a movie watching moment and we saw Mega Mind, not as funny as expected, but the 3D was well utilised. We did a light grocery shop, went home, I made a leftover fruit bake, almost crumble of apples, plums and pears. We then went to a friends place, had pizza for dinner and played many, many games of Pandemic :)

Wednesday, 15 December 2010

Day 30: A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Dear me,

Yay, you for:
  • being able to read at a pretty fast speed
  • being friendly
  • being a good friend
  • always trying to see the good rather than the bad
  • being cheery
  • having love
luv me

This is part of a 30 day challenge

Monday, 13 December 2010

Becoming a superstar

I know this post is a bit late for those of you who pay attention to rpg news, but Pazio's RPG Superstar has started. The first step to becoming a superstar is to design a wondrous item. I've been bouncing around some ideas, but my biggest problem has been that they tend to be a spell-in-a-can; a big no-no. And you'll notice that you need to have your second round idea all sorted already, because the time between getting through the first round to submission for the second round is only 3 days. All in all though despite it being tricky to come up with something awesome, it's fun :)

Are you entering the competition?

Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

If I had to find out I was pregnant now I would freak out and a bit confused, it's not supposed to be that easy for me to get pregnant. Planning is really important to me, and there is no baby planned for, yet. I don't have a job, and we live in a city I don't want to be - in a tiny granny flat. That said after the freak out I'd be excited, really excited, but worried. And then I'd start making new plans ;)

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Friday, 10 December 2010

Thursday, 9 December 2010

Insert your own title

This is post is pretty much a what's been going on post, but I couldn't think of a title I haven't used before. First off my contract has been extended for another week :) The extra money is going to be used for my new fund. I decided to start saving for my food tour of Spain, Italy and France. It's going to be my 30th birthday treat for Jerall and I. So I've got 4 years, 1 month and 9 days to go. Anyhow I'm going to take R3000 and invest it in a 6 month fixed deposit, then 6 months later add to the amount if I can and do another 6 months. It seems the best plan, currently, to get the ball rolling.

On Tuesday I was told that I wasn't BEE enough for a job. According to the law I am, so I don't quite know what the issue was. Yes, I did push the issue with the recruitment person, but not too much because I apply for a lot of jobs they advertise. I got pretty upset about it all, but there's not much else I can do about.

I've lost 6kgs total, since starting that diet. Yes, there've been some bad weeks, but for the most part it's going well. Now I've only got 11kgs to go till I reach the right weight for my height, but it's 13kgs for me to be all good with the amount. All my jeans are too big for me, but I don't want to buy new ones because I plan on keep on losing weight, so I'm stick with them till it gets really really bad. My fingers also seem to have slimmed down, my engagement and wedding rings are loose enough on my fingers to be annoying.

That's about all right now. What's been going on with you?

Wednesday, 8 December 2010

Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

I'm alive because the bakkie that hit me, wasn't going very fast and somehow the rest of the traffic missed me too. When I was 11, I got hit by a bakkie crossing the road to catch the bus to school. I don't remember it at all, all I remember was hurrying across the road and then I blanked out and woke up in an ambulance. The other kids on the bus said that I flew across the road. I was so very, very lucky - or blessed for those who roll that way - that nothing was broken. I stayed in the hospital overnight, had a few x-rays and an cat scan/mri - not to sure, went home and then school after the next week; my timing sucks I got hit just before the weekend :p The only reminder I have from the accident is a raised bump on the right hand side of my head, some really bad headaches in summer and some dreams where I'm falling and then wake up with a start when I hit the ground.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

Day 24 : Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs

My playlist is for Jerall. It's very short, but this is one tough person to pick things out for :p

  1. Wind by Akeboshi
  2. 99 red balloons by Nena
  3. Mad World by Tears for Fears
  4. Innocent Green by Yoko Kanno
Wind, because it was from the first anime we watched together - and a great introduction to j-pop.

99 red balloons it's happy and something I remember you listing to often.

Mad World cos you'll always love the 80s :)

Innocent Green because you love Yoko Kanno's music and it was part of our wedding.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Day 23 : Something you wish you had done in your life.

This one is easier. I wish that when I started my Masters I went the coursework route, I'm sure if I'd done that it'd be done. I wish that I had started the "get my license" process sooner - I'm really not happy being just over a month away from 26 and still not have my license :-/ And finally I wish that I had maintained my exercise levels from high school and my first year of university.

The best part about this though, is that I can still do these things, so all is not lost :)

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Monday, 6 December 2010

The weekend that was

It was a pretty quiet one, Friday we rpg'd, it was awesome and my character is now a fairy princess ;) Ok she's a queen, but fairy princess is much cooler :p Rogue Trader is my second favourite rpg. Saturday was a laundry day. We did get the Ultimate Edition of Dragon Age, so there was xbox hogging by J again. And Sunday pretty much had the same pattern as Saturday with some grumpiness thrown in. Only last night I dreamt that someone had kidnapped Jerall. Boy was I peeved, I beat people up, called them some bad names - in my dream I knew who took him. And then I got 8000 people - I have no idea what 8000 - to help me get him back. I pretty much waged war. I blame soapie watching for the whole kidnapped idea getting into my mind. Yes, I watch soapies :p

How was your weekend?

Saturday, 4 December 2010

Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol

Alcohol is fine in moderation, but not when people think they need it to have fun. Illegal drugs are a no go. I'm pretty conservative and I know that some people try out the recreational ones for fun/because it helps them relax...me I've not tried any. Mostly because I'm too afraid of what it could do to me, becoming addicted - I have an addictive personality, mostly it comes up when reading, eating or watching something I really, really like...I just can't stay away from it. So that's why I don't go near any of those stuff, and I try to stay away from painkillers too.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Thursday, 2 December 2010

Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Religion and I go through phases, but for the most part I'm a believer, just one that doesn't prescribe to it the way churches expect. Religion/faith has always been something important to my family, it was rare to not have gone to church on a Sunday or during the week leading to Good Friday or New Year's Eve. Yip you read right New Year's Eve. All in all it went well, until I got older, read more nonfiction and started to have questions about what we were being taught at church. This did not go over well with my family, because according to them faith is believing without question.

I believe that God would not have given us questioning minds if we weren't meant to question and further our understanding. I think that a lot of people see faith and religious practices as the same thing. So when you see things differently those are the people who lead you to question belief [if someone like that is a believer, can faith really be the right thing?], and they're the same people who make Christian a dirty word.

It might seem naive, but I do believe that although their are different religions it's the same God called by different names. After all the basic religious tenants are the same across all religions. Although that is because religion is man made. This feels a bit like I'm rambling on, but the long and the short is that everyone makes their own decisions regarding religion, and no one should force their beliefs onto anyone.

Politics is a big interest of mine, but like religion it's not for all. It also shouldn't be forced onto everyone, but I do believe that it's your civic duty to know what is going on in your country's political arena; at the very least not to sound like an idiot when talking about it ;)

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Wednesday, 1 December 2010

Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something

I read a lot, and I love it, but there hasn't been a book - yet - that has changed my views on something. However, Jodi Picoult's novels always has be thinking about things I hadn't really considered. I really enjoy that her novels always present the different sides to the issue they're touching on, add the human drama factor and I'm hooked :)

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it

I couldn't live without meat, of any kind from red to white to fish. I tried, I went vegetarian for lent this year. For the most part it went pretty well, but there were days when all I wanted to have was some salmon sushi or we went out to dinner and the pasta dishes were amazing, but I couldn't have them :-/ It really is more a combination of convenience, the "I've ate it my whole life why change now" thought and my love for sushi that stops me from contemplating life without meat seriously.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Tuesday, 30 November 2010

The weekend that was

The weekend started a bit early for us. Thursday evening we saw RED, awesome movie, and had dinner out. The restaurant was playing some Boney M, that's how you know it's Christmas people bring out the Boney M :) On Saturday we went to the Good Food and Wine Show. It was awesome :P I got a cool gadget - for frothing and turning milk into thick milkshakes, uber delicious dark chocolate, yummy pesto and Atol Kochar's autograph :D It was a great way to spend the day, all the food and there was also the coffee from Colombo. Sunday was mostly lazy, but we did go for a walk at the beach.

How was yours?

Friday, 26 November 2010

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days

Given that my day 12 post was a short one I figured that another post is in order. Sadly this post will also be a short one, I don't have a favourite band/artist. Although when the grumps do hit, or there are chores to do I alternate between jpop, pop and musicals. My musical tastes are pretty electic from rnb,pop to musicals, dance and indie. That sad heavy metal and hard rock just aren't for me, soft rock though...bring it on :) My current must have cd's are: Glee The Music Vol 3, Vol 4 and Bruno Mars Doo-Wops and Holigans.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Thursday, 25 November 2010

An update

I got a phonecall about a job, the one I interviewed for six weeks ago. It turns out that the position was temporarily frozen, but the process is back on. I take it that I'm in the running because there is no other reason for them to call me, right? Then this morning I received a phonecall from Jerall's company, remember I worked for them for two months doing research. Well they need help with research again, and starting Monday I'll be working for them for 2 weeks. It wasn't the best job, but at least now I can buy Jerall a Christmas present and not make one like I had planned.

I forgot to do Word Wednesday yesterday, but it's all Eskom's fault. What's happening with you?

Wednesday, 24 November 2010

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know

There are some obvious choices for this, but if I didn't know them I wouldn't be me. Instead of got to let go of the almost always insecure me and the worry wort me. Which I suppose would lead to me not being me anymore as I am now, but we're all always growing and changing so it'd be ok.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Tuesday, 23 November 2010

Day 9: Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted

Three people came to mind for this topic. All three were really good friends who just disappeared from my life. They didn't respond to sms', phone calls, e-mails and facebook messages. Actually all three displayed pretty shitty behaviour and I shouldn't let the drift bother me any more.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

I am my own worst enemy

So J's been grump lately and yesterday he finally let me know why. It was because we hadn't achieved anything this year, he basically feels like we just existed this year. Thinking about it, it's true and a lot of the non achievement is my fault. When I started looking into the moving to Canada stuff, there was a minor bump and I stopped working on it, same goes for the starting our own business plans. I got into the research, we realised how much it would take and then I dropped the ball. Clearly that chat made me feel rather crappy, cos I had let us down. Just to be clear that was not J's intent at all.

The sharing free for all finally got me to tell him stuff that I've kept from him and friends for months. I'm jealous of him getting to go to work every day. The 14 months of job hunting and rejection after rejection is taking a big emotional toll on me. My usual way of dealing with the shitty, non happy/cheerful emotions - burying them under the happy/cheerful Cassey cover isn't working anymore. I know it's not working because anything remotely sad starts me tearing up in an instant. Some days just getting up and getting dressed feels like a big deal, but I don't let anyone know because the voice at the back of my mind keeps on telling me that no one likes a sad person, they just wanna hang out with happy people. I know that, that voice is a disservice to J and my friends, but it's hard to ignore that voice. Basically my plan was be sad during the day, but don't tell anyone when you chat to them, and be damn sure to not show J when he gets home.

So that's been going on, but I'm going to change it. I'm working on getting better at self motivating and being more open about stuff.

Monday, 22 November 2010

The weekend that was

The weekend was supposed to be busy, but it wasn't. Aside from lounging around at home, grocery shopping we did get in some gaming. There was a level one Pathfinder game to introducing people to table-top roleplaying at the war games club. There were six new players signed up, but only two showed :-/ It was still fun though.

How was your weekend?

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell or treated you like shit

So there was/is my mother and various people through high school and the start of university who I thought were friends, but really just people who were good at making me feel the worst I could. Even though there are those people, I must admit that the one person who treated/treats me like shit the most and worst is me. And really it is something I've got to stop doing. On the plus side I don't do it as much anymore, and I have gotten better at standing up for myself so that others can't do that to me anymore.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Friday, 19 November 2010

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do

I know that today already has a 30 day challenge post, but because I forgot to mention that I'll be offline tomorrow here's an extra post. I'm offline tomorrow - hopefully only tomorrow - because the usb ports aren't working and it needs to be sorted out.

Something I hope I never have to do is bury Jerall. I've got to go first or we die at the same time. There is no way I want to be in a world that he isn't in. This will probably move to second spot on the "I never want to do" list when we have children, but for now this is it.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

There is so much that I want to do, that just mentioning one is not possible.
  • I want to study further, well restart and finish that MA, then do a PhD. Take a course in philosophy and sociology.
  • Go to cooking school. I think I'm a pretty competent home cook, but I want to be able to do more.
  • See the world, more specifically Japan, Ireland and the parts of Europe not on my food tour list.
  • Go on a food tour to France, Italy, Spain.
  • Move back to Cape Town, and then decide if we want to leave SA.
  • Get a puppy.
  • Expand our family of two to three, maybe four.
  • Be an awesome investor.
  • Own at least one property of my own. Yes, J and I will buy property, but I want to buy my own. It'll prove that just because we were an 'us' from when I was 19 and that I hadn't gone off and done things that it doesn't stop me from still doing things on my own. Does that make sense?

Word Wednesday

I don't think I even need to put up the meaning for today's word, it's easy peasy :p

  • the last but two
  • before the next to last
  • third from the end
  • two before the last
  • the third last
So we have penultimate, antepenultimate and preantepenultimate. Yip in the English language there are single words to describe: second last, third last and fourth from last :0

*Hertnon, S. 2008. From afterwit to zemblanity. Auckland:New Holland Publishers

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

For the regular readers or those who know me, I'm pretty sure you knew the answer to this one when you saw the title. I have to forgive my mother for all the cruel, hurtful things a mother - or any person - should say to a child. I know that I have to forgive her, but I'm not ready for it. I don't know when I will be or if I will be...I'll just have to wait and see.

The weekend that was

Awesome title thanks to Megan. Time in Cape Town is always awesome, and surprisingly even the family events were ok. The newly acquired brother-in-law - we've meet before, but didn't get to really chat - is a nice guy, has similar tv and movie tastes so easy to talk to. The not so nice parts of the trip was seeing how much more animatedly C [Jerall's brother's wife, not his sister. Yes, the 3 'daughters' in the family all have names starting with a C] about her pets than her 3 and a half month old son. She just seemed so disinterested in him, is the fact that she's sick, Noah's sick grumpy and in a new environment a good enough explanation for it? It just bugged me how everything that had to happen for him/because of him seemed a hassle for her. But since being pregnant all her health issues have been worse, and she does/had depression so maybe it's just post-natal depression. I'm trying really hard to not just think she's just not interested in her son. Noah is very cute, and I did get to hold him a few times so yay :0

Aside for the family stuff - where I always seemed over dressed, jeans and top, skirt and top, not just t-shirts - time was spent gaming and seeing peeps. We were in Stellenbosch for a bit and had brunch at my favourite restaurant followed by Italian ice-cream. All in all it was a good long weekend. How was yours?

Thursday, 11 November 2010

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Right now the biggest thing is quitting my job when I did. Yes, Jerall and I discussed it, and we are doing fine financially, but if I'd just managed to put up with the crap for a few more months :-/ A few more months would have meant more savings, and moving to CT on our own steam. Instead I'm on this never ending job hunt, and still stuck in Dbn.

*Just a reminder there won't be a post tomorrow or on Monday because we'll be in CT :)

Wednesday, 10 November 2010

Day 2: Something you love about yourself

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

This one is turning out not to be as tough as I thought it would be :) I love that my default mood is a combination of cheerful and content. Yes, things get me down and I have my grumpy moments, but they don't last for ages. I can't maintain a good sulk, or anger for very long. To me it just seems easier to be happy than not. Is that strange?

Tuesday, 9 November 2010

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

There's more than one thing that I hate about myself, but I think the biggest one is that I care about what people think of me or rather I want everyone to like me. I know it's dumb, not everyone will like/get along with everyone else, but I need to be liked. There's a long list of why I think like this, but what I need to do/am working on is trying to not have others opinions matter...or more like not matter as much as I tend to let it matter. I think I'm getting there.


Yay, I be online proper again :) The netbook is cute, but the little keys aren't that cute. Basically we got a netbook to give us some more time to get an awesome gaming desktop, and because Jerall couldn't take my moaning about not being online anymore ;) In other news we'll be in Cape Town on Friday :) In CT we'll meet Noah, game lots and have lots of food, all bad for the lose weight plan, but still fun.

There is a 30 day challenge meme going on, that started with this lady. No surprise that I'll be doing it. It's not going to be 30 days in a row, more of a Monday to Friday thing. Here's the breakdown of each days topic:

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Thursday, 28 October 2010

Catch up

So it's been awhile, but this time it's not because I've been lazy, blame the laptop. Our personal machine is busted, so I don't have access to a machine during the day. And when Jerall gets home there's all post-work stuff and suddenly it's bedtime. So that's why I've not really been online - well aside from the tweeting from my phone. Sadly we still haven't gotten a replacement machine, we're waiting on some things to fall into place, and there were some extra expenses for this month.

There's been some things going on and here they are summarised in short paragraphs :0

A bug flew into Jerall's ear, and he had to stay in hospital overnight. It was most freaky when it happened. The emergency doctor tried to get it out, but couldn't and so J had to stay overnight to see the ENT guy. At the time I was a super stressed out person, that said it's not hard for me to get stressed out I'm just one of those people who get stressed and anxious easily. J's is all good, just on a quest to get rid of all Christmas beetles.

I had an interview for a job with a daily in Cape Town. The test went well, I think. I found 20 errors, they said there were 15 - which I think could be seen as a bad thing. I think the headers and captions I came up with were good, now just to get some answer from them. There was some encouraging news last week, when they called for the number of my last employer - why they couldn't get it from my cv beats me - although it does mean that I have some sort of chance.

We started this "diet", well more just increased our veg and fruit intake; and got more into the many small meals habit. As a result I've lost just over 3kgs - at last check - and most of my jeans can just be taken off without undoing the zip or buttons :) The best part is that this has been over a 3 week period, so it's not that really quick, bad weight loss. Also because of the change in eating habits we've got the more exercise thing going well again :)

Along the weight loss lines, bro-in-laws wife [what do I call her, she's not my sis-in-law?] who had Noah at the end of August, is already in her pre-Noah clothes. Yay for her, but sucky for me. I've been trying to lose weight for easily a year now, and every week when my mother-in-law calls J she asks him If I've lost any weight. Yes, she does that...and the weekly phone calls are never to me, always him. OK this is turning into a bit of a rant...back to the catch up.

A friend got engaged and I get to plan her and her fiance's wedding :) This happened because I e-mailed them a list of the things you need to do for a wedding, and quite a few ideas that they could use to help them get their own ideas for what they wanted. So there is a small upside to being unemployed at the moment. Does anyone know of great Durban photographers? All the awesome people I know of are either in Jhb or CT.

In 3 weeks time we'll be going to CT for my sis-in-laws post wedding party. Yip, post wedding. She and her husband got married 10/10/10 super auspicious if you're Chinese, and it was just them, the officiant, the witness and photographer. To me that's not really a wedding, it's more of a special date. Yes, a wedding is about the couple, but there are people who are important to you/that you are important to that it's weird not to share it with them. I recognise that for a lot of people, myself included, this doesn't always include family, but it's no reason to exclude the family you chose. Your friends. Also we just sent them a card, they didn't give us a gift, so we're not giving them one. In fact the card is more than they did, they just signed the bro-in-law's card. Petty maybe, but why should I give someone who doesn't like me, or tried to get to know me a gift?

That's about it at the moment. I'll try to hijack Jerall's work machine over the weekend and get some more posts going then.

Have a great rest of the week and weekend.

Wednesday, 22 September 2010

Word Wednesday

Today's word is ambsace.

  • both aces
  • bad luck
  • misfortune
  • worthless, nought, next to nothing
  • the smallest amount of distance
It seems that it could be used instead of "snake eyes", but the other meanings associated with ambsace indicate that it wouldn't be the best choice.

*Hertnon, S. 2008. From afterwit to zemblanity. Auckland:New Holland Publishers

Monday, 20 September 2010

The weekend that was

I'm feeling lazy so the rest of this post will be in bullet points.
  • Friday night we watched Karate Kid, it was much better than expected.
  • Saturday chores were followed with watching The Expendables, so not worth a full priced movie ticket.
  • It was so bad, that the person who'd bought the groups tickets didn't want to take our money :-/
  • Most of that group were faders, they left before 22h00.
  • Sunday was a lazy day, watched a ton of Supernatural season 1.
  • I'd seen random episodes, but have not really watched the series.
  • I can't watch it if I'm alone at home, yip I'm that weenie :-/
Happy Monday

Friday, 17 September 2010


Last night we went to the Cape Legends Roadshow, it was awesome. The wine and snacks were great;there was a very dangerous rose by Theuniskraal that I just kept on going back for more. Added to the there was a local coffee company, Colombo, doing demos, gosh do they have some great gadgets :0 Added bonus they do coffee apreciation classes/courses, I'm waiting for more info before getting some friends together to try it out.

This morning I was told about three different short contract opportunities here, and received two very polite Cape Town job rejection letters. It is all the suck, but at least a short term contract job here means more money for the move to Cape Town fund.

Tonight we're going to the movies with Pfangirl and tomorrow we're doing the movies again, with different folks though :) What are your weekend plans?

Happy Friday

Wednesday, 15 September 2010

Word Wednesday

Image from here

If you love food, then this is a word for you.

*: divinely beautiful, exceptionally pleasing to taste or smell, especially delicious or fragrant.

I'm looking forward to using it the next time I have dim sum :) What dish would you describe as ambrosial?

*Hertnon, S. 2008. From afterwit to zemblanity. Auckland:New Holland Publishers

Monday, 13 September 2010

Weekend round-up

It was one of those quiet weekends, although to be fair it was busier than the usual do nothing weekend. The highlights include dinner and gaming at P and R's Saturday evening. We took the xbox over, but we didn't play Lips :-/ It seems that people either are eager to play or they avoid it like the plague. Yesterday we went out for lunch and a movie. We watched Sorceror's Apprentice...it was a good watch, but I got bored at points and for the most part it's forgettable.

Did you have a good weekend?

In other news, I wrote my learner's test this morning, and passed. It would have been tragic had I failed. You 'write' the test on a pc, well it's touch screen, so you'd think the process would go faster...it doesn't. The took 15 minutes going through what you need to do, when it's very clear. Then once I finished the test, and got my score I had to wait half an hour for the results print out to finally get the license :-/ Oh, well it's done now. Now just the driver's test to go.

Happy Monday

Thursday, 9 September 2010

Wednesday, 8 September 2010

Word Wednesday

From the same book* as last week, I give you afterwit.

  • wisdom after the event, that comes to late
  • knowledge gained too late to be of any use
  • a witty remark thought up to late to be of any use
The last one happens to me often, how about you?

Happy Wednesday

*Hertnon, S. 2008. From afterwit to zemblanity. Auckland:New Holland Publishers

Tuesday, 7 September 2010

Just keep swimming

I just read this post. It hit a nerve, well more it resonated. I don't think I'd call it a 20-something crisis, more it's just dealing with things while not being prepared for them. Then again that's life, dealing with things we're unprepared for. And for now, I think I'll just go with this:

"So my thing for this year is this- fuck it. Fuck wasting time while waiting for the perfect job opportunity. I’ll get where I want to be, and it may not be today or tomorrow, or even in the next 10 years, but I’ll never stop pursuing it, and in the mean time, I am an adult, and I have responsibilities"

Monday, 6 September 2010

National Wills Week

Just spreading the word, it's National Wills Week this week. You can get a basic will drawn up for free by an attorney. I know death isn't something that we like to think about, but it'll happen and you should plan for it. A will is a great way to ensure that they'll be no family fights about anything, and that your things get given to the right person. Jerall and I got ours done this morning and it took 40 minutes. If you've got 40 minutes to spare check with your local attorney for a time and get it done.

Happy Monday.

Wednesday, 1 September 2010

Word Wednesday

On Friday I bought this book, it's filled with a 100 rarely words. Some of them are really great to share. Today I present to you agathism.

Agathism: "the doctrine that all things tend towards the ultimate good, as distinguished from optimism which holds that all things are now for the best." *

If you're wondering what the image of Karl Agathon has to do with it then you need to watch Battlestar Galactica; once you do it'll all make sense ;) Not keen on watching then the long and short of it is this: that particular character is all about doing the good thing.

Happy Spring

*Hertnon, S. 2008. From afterwit to zemblanity. Auckland:New Holland Publishers

Monday, 30 August 2010

Friday, 27 August 2010

Thursday, 26 August 2010


First the excuses :p I've not blogged in awhile because of the trip, and then both Jerall and I got sick. The trip was pretty fun, I went to my first con - Dragonfire, which was really poorly organised. The modules I played in were fun, but they could have done so much more. For a full review go here. The best part of the trip was that everyday we played at least one board game :D H and L have an awesome board game collection. Other highlights include obviously watching Waiting for Godot, the dinners and all round fun times with friends. Also to stop feeling like a fuddie duddie [or is it fuddy duddy?] I got my third ear piercing, and now I want more :0

The downside of having such a great time in Cape Town is coming back to Durban. Added to that sad thought is that unless we get jobs we won't see CT till next year :-/ Those thoughts, and the sickness has lead to me feeling pretty blue. In other news I've finally booked my learners, my test is on the 13th of September. I'm nervous about it, I've not written any tests since 2007. I'm sure I'll get it, it's not exactly rocket science - que the Mitchell and Webb brain surgeon/rocket scientist sketch :)

Have a good Thursday

Wednesday, 4 August 2010

Trip time

We're going to Cape Town tomorrow :D I know I've mentioned it before, I just figured I'll say so again ;) From tomorrow till the 13th of August we'll pretty much be offline, so I won't be able to stick to the 2 posts a week plan. Well I suppose I could if I figured out how to do that on blogger. I know it's somewhere on the dashboard, but I've just not found it.

When we land tomorrow we've got to rush to get our things to those we're staying with and then rush off to watch Waiting for Godot at The Fugard. It shall be the awesome :) The rest of the trip involves gaming, gaming and more gaming. There'll be some dinner, bowling and Dragonfire thrown in, but mostly there'll be gaming :)

Hope your long weekend rocks.

Monday, 2 August 2010

Rude people

Tonight was the culmination of a long standing irritation with where we live and our landlady's inability to deal with her son. Our landlady's son is fond of having spur of the moment braai's. This is a problem for us because our flat/cottage is in their backyard. So common courtesy dictates that we get warning, and we never do. We got home earlier this evening to find a spur of the moment braai going on. This put a damper in our plans to do laundry* for the trip; which our landlady knows about.

At about 21h00 the noise got so bad that I had to call our landlady to have words about it, I figure she'll be able to do something. Nothing happened. Then Jerall called her 20 minutes later and still nothing. So at 22h00 I go outside and tell them that they are grown enough to know that they are being rude and they need to go; we need to get up early and Jerall has a bigish presentation in the morning. Landlady's son proceeds to tell me that he has a LLM, and knows law and that we have no rights as tenants, that's right the law student says we have no rights and can't do anything. I go, do you have a job? then walk away. His friends then swear at me, nice group right?

After calming down I call his mom, and tell her this needs to be sorted out. Her son is rude and disrespectful and so are his friends. I said we don't want to move, but unless some common courtesy/respect is given to us we'll have to move. I also told her that given that he lives in her house, with her money he should show her respect by being decent towards us. It sucks for his parents that they're going to lose great tenants - we pay our rent early, don't have raucous parties/braai's or doing anything else tenants shouldn't. It also sucks for us, we're saving quite a bit living here, but not enough to put up with crap.

Her son is such a douche. I can't believe I let a boy upset me so much. He is a boy: 25/26 living at home off mom and dad, makes you a boy. All of my friends who completed their masters did so while having a job.

If you're in Durban and looking for a place let me know where, so I can give you a heads up about the problems you'll deal with while living at this place.

*I'm sure I've mentioned the battle in getting any line space to do your laundry here. It's an ongoing fight to get any done, so you've got to grab space when it's there.


So today has been a rather beh/meh day. Although on the plus side it's a 3 day working week, but I'll be unemployed again once we get back from Cape Town, so that's not to cool. This thing with my mother has turned me into even more of an emotional creature. There are all these thoughts that keep on playing in my head, was it the right time to do it, can i maintain it [I've tried before, but not successfully], how do I move on from this. Then there is the judgement, which hurts more than I thought it would.

I've been told to not live in the past, that I should be ashamed of myself, looked at oddly when I've told about this decision; and all by people who knew what was going on. The you should be ashamed of yourself is staying with me the longest, probably because of the source, my cousin.
She has been like my older sister, but has also seen what trying to deal with my mother has done to me/shaped me.

There are comments from my mother that I still can't shake, like " Your friends aren't your friends. They're smart people who don't want to be smart all the time, so they spend time with you." It has been the biggest thing adding to my low value of my intelligence, and constant insecurity around people liking me. I know that I come across as friendly, and unfazed by things [well to people in real life who don't read my blog ;) ] but it is something I work at all the time. The positive that has come from that horrid remark is that I'm always trying to learn about something new and interesting, but then again it's because no one wants to be friends with the stupid, uninteresting girl. I know logically that that's not true of me, but I just can't shake that kernel of doubt.

Then to add to all the emotions going on already, there are all these people having babies. And while I'm so excited for them and their new adventures it just makes me feel less than, that I can't get pregnant accidentally. I sometimes wish I hadn't noticed that something was off with my body and found out why, it would have made our plan of waiting so much easier to go along with at moments of these.

Anyhow enough of the feeling sorry for myself, but it is good to get it out. Happy thought Cape Town soon.

Friday, 30 July 2010


So I'm a "I'll tell you how I feel, wear my heart on my sleeve person",which you probably know by now ;) Lately I've been thinking that it might not be the best kind of person to be. It's just that most of the people I surround myself with aren't like that, and I battle to understand why if you're excited you wouldn't show it. Wait my real life friends are like that, but the people I know from the internets aren't. I digress, what I was getting to is that I'm getting better at reading those people - the ones who are hard to read - but that it still just seems off to me. I know that to them, my emotional nature seems off. This point I'm trying to make is just rambling on and running away from me :-/ Mostly I just wanted to say that I'm getting better at not wearing the same glasses to 'see' everyone.

In other news to avoid this baby fever that seems to be going around, I've decided to get a pet. I wish we could get a puppy, but we're just in too small a place right now to do it. So it looks like it'll be a kitten. I'm still not sure so feel free to add your 2 cents. Also I've become an aunty for the first time today. Our nephew is Noah Oliver, his parents missed that fact that his initials make the word not or to take into account that side of the family's habit to shorten names, so he'll more than likely be called No :-/ Anyhow it's exciting, we might even go to PE more often than every 2-3 years now :p And big congrats to SleepyJane who got engaged, yay for you and your J :)

This weekend is going to be busy, we're watching Inception tonight, braaing and gaming on Saturday, and doing lots of laundry :p I'm also working on a Women in Gaming post for NMP, and I plan to finish Dragon Age. Jerall finished it yesterday, so now he can't hog the Xbox anymore :0

Happy Friday.

Thursday, 29 July 2010

Growing the hobby

This month's RPG Carnival is on Growing the Hobby. Growing the hobby is one of the reasons I'm doing the post here and not at Tenletter. I really believe that the best way to grow the hobby is to talk about it with everyone, especially because we have things like this floating around. We've got to get people to see that gaming - in whatever form you do it, rpg, larping, boardgames, etc - is just another interest like reading or watching movies. That people who game are normal and not all of us do costumes. That gaming is just another fun thing to do with your friends.

I'm not saying go around forcing others to take part, but surely your passion for it could spark an interest. So go on invite your non-gamer friend over for a round of Ninja Burger and take it from there.

Wednesday, 28 July 2010

I took a stand

So this morning I had an e-mail from my mother and I just decided enough. I'm going to say my piece and just be done with this. I'm just so tired of all her crap and dealing with the emotional fallout that happens whenever I speak to her.

Here is what I said:


I'm not going to be speaking to you because of what you've said to T. There is a difference between telling her it's her life, and that if she doesn't focus on her studies there'll be consequences and what you said; that she is messing up and throwing her life away. I'll talk/sms my brother and sister, but not to you, this time you've gone to far.

Not the best way to start the day, but it'll be for the best.

Friday, 23 July 2010

That second post

Happy Friday all :) Really I have tons to say, but no time to type it. This really is just so that I don't get my taking action, actions all wrong. The exercise hasn't gone well, but it is because I've been sick and on these horrid antibiotics, they made me feel worse not better. Well it's not surprising as the common side effect - yes, I read the leaflets - is nausea, vomiting and all those other gross tummy issues. I did however, write a letter to friend N in the US, so it's not all bad.

Have a great weekend.

Monday, 19 July 2010

Taking action

I am a somewhat lazy person, but this is something I need to change. So from now on, I'm doing the 30 day thing to get into better habits, I'm going to be all about taking action. I realised that I tend to moan and groan about a lot of things, then I start changing it, but hardly ever follow through. I think it could be because I expect dramatic changes and instant results, no more ...small things all the way.

Starting with my weight. Yes, the pcos does make it harder to lose weight; yes, I'm eating well; yes, we walk to the shops, but clearly it's not enough. So starting from today I'll be doing something small about it. I'm going to talk a walk around the block, small and easy to do. I'm so tired of my non-driver status, it's got to change, but I can't seem to get a telephonic learner's booking to get the ball rolling, or book on a Saturday, so it'll have to happen on a weekday. If anyone knows of anyplace in Durban or Cape Town, where I could book on one day, and possible write on the same day or within a few days please let me know. I included Cape Town because we'll be there for about 10 days in August :) I dislike it intensely when someone shortens my name, very few people can get away with it - those who I've been good friends with for a long time get a pass. Next time someone does it, I will either shorten their name and/or ask them to stop. I'll no longer put off writing the letters to friends overseas, I'll even include friends in SA, it's nice to get post that isn't a bill.

I'm not sure who many of you guys game, but the Ennie nominations occurred recently, there are some people who should have been nominated but weren't which sucks. I digress, you vote for winners and after that you can vote for judges, of the 22 nominees only 3 are women. Not cool, there are so many awesome female gamers who are as passionate about the rpg hobby and it should be reflected. So to that light I'm going to expand my rpg horizons and maybe run next year, and find other great female gamers and get them to do the same.

I know it seems like a lot, and that I'm setting myself up to fail - I do tend to self sabotage - but I'm going to do my best to make it stick this time. I look at it this way, the more people I tell, the more people I have rooting for me and to answer too. I don't mean you guys will be my watchdogs, but it'll help me stick to things when I know that someone somewhere might wonder why I didn't do my best to treat myself well and follow through. Because that is what this is a way to be good to myself.

Have a great rest of your Monday.

Ps. I will blog at least twice a week too :)

Thursday, 8 July 2010

A bushel of thoughts

I know, odd title, but I just couldn't really think of anything else. Also it feels like we tend to stick to using the same words all the time, so from now on I'm going to try to use those I don't use all that often. I was going to go with barrage of thoughts, but that felt a bit antagonistic; or is it just me? Anyhow the point was that there are a lot of random thoughts going into this post, and now you know.

First there was the weekend; which did have the bright spots I mentioned, but it also had some dull spots like Jerall being all silly guy like. The upshot of the silly guy moment is that we now have a better than tentative plan for moving, which help more than the "let's just move plan". Monday was a surprisingly busy work day, which is better than the alternative. Tuesday though was not so good, and those of you who follow me on twitter would have heard about it, but for those who don't here goes.

So Jerall has had leave issues since last year June, he naturally told them then that something was wrong to which they respond, but didn't sort out. The him sending e-mails about it and them not doing anything carried on till last month, and it only ending because one of the HR team noticed that her leave was wrong. HR then sends out a mail saying "we've noticed a problem with leave calculations and will fix it." It's at this point that J lays a formal complaint with management,along the lines of "I told you about this and you did nothing." There were lots of mails going back and forth, which results in the HR team and the Operations Manager talking crap about him loudly. For those who've forgotten, I'm now working there on a short term basis.

The talking crap about people has been going on for as long as I've been
here, but it really got to me on Tuesday. So I went to the manager and said that I would appreciate it if they didn't talk crap about my husband and other people. She, of course, denied that it was malicious and they were just saying stuff, which is utter bull. I told her, people don't just say stuff, and that it was malicious which she denied; only she then went on and asked me to not tell anyone what I hear, that proves that she knows they were in wrong, but couldn't be bothered to act like decent people. The upside of me going to talk to her about it was that I realised something; if anyone talks crap about people I care about, my first reaction is anger and to set them straight, but I don't do it for myself, I just get hurt and let it go. So I should treat myself at least as well as I treat my friends, so that's what I'll be doing from now on.

In other random news I've decided to not drink any caffeine drinks for a month. I don't drink much coffee already, and I'd really like to ditch soft drinks, so I figure if I can get it right for a month, it should stick. That's also going to be my go-to plan for trying something new, or changing my routines, hopefully it'll work.

Also a blogger I've been following just deleted her blog, and isn't on twitter anymore, which sucks, but I figure she has her reasons. Another blogger I follow is having her baby tomorrow, yay [I'll add the hyperlinks later, I'm typing this in notepad to do a quick put up of posts while at work], and another awesome blogger lady is pregnant. Both sets of news are bigger yays than normal because both these ladies had some tough times with the baby business, so double yay.

Have a great rest of your Thursday.

Friday, 2 July 2010

A weekend of bright spots

Happy Friday everyone. In my quest to be a better blogger I give you; my second blog post in as many days ;)
  • The weekend ahead shall not only be good, but it also has quite a few bright spots:
  • New books, we'll be fetching our copies of the new Phillip Pullman and Trudi Cananvan
  • Glee, I love it, don't you?
  • Ghana and the Netherlands are going to kick ass in their games.
  • Gaming, please cross all your fingers and toes that it doesn't get cancelled again
  • More gaming, provided I get a turn to play Fable II, Jerall is such an xbox hog

Hope your weekend has many bright spots too :)

Thursday, 1 July 2010

Midweek dinner

...with friends is defiantly something I should do more often. I had dinner with LW and JR last night. I would just use their first name initials, but oddly I have a few friends whose names start with L and J. I haven't seen either of them in ages, and there was lots to catch up on. All three of us are talkers, so as you can imagine it was chaotic fun :) Also it seems that a glass of red wine solves my falling asleep problem, I got home and didn't need to read or watch anything to stop my mind buzz.

Just a quick midweek update, to get back into the swing of blogging.
Have a great rest of your Wednesday :)

Tuesday, 29 June 2010

Weekend happenings

I'm slowly, but surely getting back into the swing with blogging. I had a rather odd weekend. Friday I just passed out on the couch at about 20h00, very strange for me. Although I've not been getting lots of sleep with the whole go to bed late and get up early for work thing, so that could be it ;)

Jerall worked a full working day on Saturday so I had to keep myself occupied. I went to the hairdresser, got new badges for my bag and got a hand reading, for the first time ever. It was rather interesting. In that hour and a half with the reader I got more techniques to deal with things, and covered more of my issues than in 10 hours of therapy. The rest of Saturday I just lazed. When Jeral got home we went out for dinner,and book and game browsing. I forgot our Exclusives vouchers at home so we didn't buy any books, but are picking up two set aside for us over the weekend. I did however, get 4 cd's on sale, Mamma Mia soundtrack, Queen's Greatest Hits, and a Prime Circle and Jack Johnson ones too. I also bought Fable II for Jerall, it's was super cheap for a xbox game :)We bumped into friends and had coffee and chat with them. Sunday with Jerall at work again I did some chores and bemoaned Durban again. The friends we do have here live to far away for a spur of the moment visit, not so cool. Fortunately Jerall didn't have to work that late, so he got home earlier than expected and threw me off getting some of the chores done. We lazed about and both took turns playing Fable II.

How was yours?

Friday, 25 June 2010

Happy Friday

Woo hoo, it's the weekend. Yes, I'm excited about it. Not only is it a pay day weekend, but I'll get to sleep in :) It's not all good though,Jerall has to work tomorrow :-/ Hopefully not too long. On the plus side it looks like we'll be gaming again :) Best part, we'll be playing at P's house, return season 2 of Battlestar Galactica and leave with season 3 :D

Hope you have a great weekend.

Wednesday, 23 June 2010


I know I’m a terrible blogger, and it’s been awhile, but sometimes you just don’t feel like blogging. Anyway here I am again. What’s been going on well there’s work, and occasional gaming. I wish we had more people in Durban who gamed; it’s tough to arrange stuff then have people flake out. Work is so-so. As you know it’s for the same company that Jerall works for, and this is a way for them to keep him longer…if it works out. The past three weeks have been frustrating: the work I’m doing is hard to complete without access to information, which I don’t have and neither do they. Those people, who we weren’t already friendly with, suck. They talk crap and laugh about others all the time, and they don’t like Glee. I was listening to music for a few days, but the day I played music from the Glee soundtrack I get asked to turn it down, it didn’t bother anyone till then. And then I hear them laughing and joking about it, which really pissed me off. Worse I can’t say anything, because Jerall still has to deal with them. Did I mention that a good number of the people here do jack, while the rest work there ass off.

Good news my current dosage of metrofmin is going well, no higher dosages for me.

Back to the vent. I’m so angry with my mother; there aren’t enough words to describe it. And I’m upset with myself for believing her when she said she’d changed and listening to her when she told me what was going on with my sister. I should have known better, I was there, I went through it. My mother has taken to telling my sister she’s pathetic, stupid and throwing her life away. This is not something you say to an 18 year old, your child, or to anyone for that matter. I don’t know why it surprises me, all my life she’s told me that I’m stupid, that my friends – who are smart – aren’t my friends, they just want to be dumb for a bit, and that nothing I do is good enough. See I knew what she’s like and still I just left my sister there. When they started having bigger financial problems Jerall and I said we’d sort out my sisters schooling etc, and at that time we wondered if maybe she shouldn’t just live with us, but decided against it. And now it’s like why did I decide to do that, I know what she’s like. And I was lucky, only seeing her on weekends and school holidays; I lived with my aunt and uncle for high school. My brother also lived with an aunt and uncle for some of high school, so he missed some of it too. Now I just need to remember like I told my sister, it’s only 6 months of school left, then she can just leave. And hopefully we’re in Cape Town by then and we can take it from there.

Thanks for the vent. I’ll be more cheerful next time.

Sunday, 6 June 2010

An update

I've had an interesting week this week. Monday I finally created an alphabetical list of the books we own, this meant unpacking and repacking them from their storage boxes - one day we'll have bookshelves *sigh*. Tuesday was the usual battle of avoiding and doing chores, but Wednesday...that was different. Wednesday morning I got a phone call offering me a month long job, with the option of it turning into something more permanent. Sadly it wasn't the Random House job, but the one in Durban. I took it, it's only a month and having some cash would be good. The kicker I had to start on Thursday, yip the next day.

I've not been in an office for almost 9 months and in those 9 months my work pants and I have become bitter enemies. Naturally this meant looking for new work pants...and I'm now convinced that the pants fairies hate me. I've been looking for a decent pair since Wednesday, and have tried all the stores and nothing :-/ On the plus side the office is very informal, people wear shorts to work. Only I don't roll that way, and I like looking and feeling like I'm going to work. So until I find some work pants it'll be dark jeans and fitted shirts.

Back to the week retelling, Thursday and Friday was office. I'm sadly without my own machine, am using the PA's who's on sick leave and dumb enough to leave all her passwords with three people, yip three. It seems silly that I had to start right away, but when I get there they're unprepared for me, it was awhile till I had something to do. Also I have some very specific tasks, but they don't have all the resources I need to complete them :-/ On the plus side, it is great to leave the home and talk to people in person and not through the net.

The weekend was a chore filled one :-/ We did manage to watch Prince of Persia and try a new Greek restaurant, not returning to that restaurant though. Something awesome about the chore situation is that it's not just me doing them anymore :) With Jerall going to work and me being home, it made sense that I did all of them...except supper dishes, but now we split them :) Re the supper dishes, our rule is if you cooked you don't do them.

How was your weekend?

Monday, 31 May 2010

The weekend

I've decided to do these posts about the weekend past in 1 paragraph, it might be tricky this week, but here goes. Friday evening was the Durban 27 Dinner, different crowd from the last time, but thoroughly fun. Saturday we had our traditional Wimpy breakfast :) Then Saturday later afternoon we went to friend P's house to play boardgames, braai and watch the rugby. It's been a long while since I've watched a game from start to finish, mostly because we're not big into sports. Although I think most South Africans know a bit and watch a bit of the three big sports: cricket, rugby and soccer. Sadly we only played one game of Dominion, 30 Seconds and didn't get to play BattlestarGalatica , even though P has the expansion now :-/ Sunday saw us watching season 2 of Battlestar, we played the boardgame for ages before we actually watched the show :0 Lunch was at the local seafood restaurant, yummy prawns :) And that was about it. How was yours?

Friday, 28 May 2010

People can be so silly

So I read this the article itself is fine, but the comments gah. Those people are crazy. I know I shouldn't have, but I did take issue with some of the comments, I just couldn't bring myself to comment there. Most of the people who comment there just go off on crazy tirades. See Jerall and I are a mixed race couple, he's Chinese - third generation South African born - and I'm Coloured - with an awesome year round tan :). And I'm reading that and the comments and am just astounded that people can be that dumb, seriously it's nature to stick to your own, seriously? So this is mostly just a vent and also, boo to those fools. Sure we come from different cultural backgrounds, but without I'd never have dim sum ;)

Wednesday, 26 May 2010

I've been thinking

One thing being jobless does is give you lots of time to think and I suppose to do all those other things you never get done because you don't have time. This is my problem, I have lots of time to you know, work on my thesis, get the whole licence thing sorted, get exercising, learn another language, get involved with charity and read. Save for the reading, I just haven't gotten to really getting any of those other things done.

So I've been thinking about why nothing is really getting done, and I figured it out. The exercising is because I'm lazy and the licence is because I'm holding onto the hope that we'll move back to Cape Town soon. The rest of it, well all of it actually, is because I'm a person who only really gets things done, and done well when I'm very busy. Being very busy stops me from procrastinating - I'm pretty good at leaving things for the last minute - or rather just buckling down and getting things done.

Looking back I'm surprised that I didn't realise this earlier. I've always preformed my best academically when I was busy. During matric I was a: prefect, chair of a committee, vice chair of another, member of CU, part of the team that helped the school librarian, choir member, part of the debating team and had one sport per term, I did really well then re-earning academic colours that I last had at the end of standard eight. My Honours year, I had 4 part time jobs to cover my expenses - tutoring, department assistant, marker for another department and on the weekends I worked at a book store - and I was the chair of the English Society; again I did really well. Then the best I performed at my old job was when we had a massive deadline where we all were working overtime and I was working on my thesis, having driving lessons, going to gym and planning our wedding.

So to me this pretty much means I need to either form new habits or wait till I have a job to get things done. I suppose both would work, but it's hard to form new habits. Or just find some other external stimuli....hmmm. Can anyone relate to this, or am I just odd in that respect?

Monday, 24 May 2010

The weekend

My weekend was pretty quiet, yours? We didn't do much on Friday because I was feeling sick :-/ I did manage to make my level 17 character for the rpg session on Saturday morning. Saturday morning was all about the rpging :) My character, although being a tank, didn't get to do much because I spent all the money on AC and her weapon. This meant that she had no cool trick items and got trapped in a force cage :-/ The rest of Saturday and all of Sunday was spent just loafing around watching the Grand Designs marathon on BBC Lifestyle. That show is amazing, and it kicked off a session of The Sims 3, I was inspired to build homes :)

That's it, a weekend in a paragraph. How was yours?

Friday, 21 May 2010

Random thoughts

Yesterday my little sister turned 18. The strange thing about it was that it made me feel old. I didn't feel old when I turned 25, but her turning 18 got the "I'm getting old" ball rolling. I think it's got more to do with what I wanted to achieve by this age when I was 18. I was supposed to have my licence by now and working on my PhD, alas none of those are on the cards as yet :-/

Much as the I'm getting older thought freaked me out, it also sparked a chat with Jerall. We're fortunate enough that his salary covers all our expenses with a little bit for treats and minuscule savings. So when I get a job most of it will go into savings to buy a house/loft apartment, furniture - we rent fully furnished places, investments, treats and the holiday fund. So maybe getting older isn't that bad :)

I blame BBC Lifestyle for this one. I've decided we need to go on a food tour of France, Italy and Spain. Yes, there's tons of other really cool stuff to do in those countries, but all I really want to do is go to all the little towns and eat their food. So when I get a job a large chunk of it will go into the holiday fund.

Speaking of holidays, I'm trying to arrange a get together for a long weekend away with friends. So far the Northern Cape looks good for places that most of us haven't been to. Now to just get consensus.

Tomorrow we game :D

Have a great weekend. :)

Thursday, 20 May 2010

Book meme

Found: a fun meme from this lady. I enjoy memes they make putting up new posts much easier :)

Take the nearest book next to you and answer the following questions:

Title and Author:
Pygmy by Chuck Palahniuk

Is the book dedicated to anyone? If so, whom?
To Amy Hempel

What is the first sentence?
Begins here first account of operative me, agent 67, on arrival Midwestern American airport greater [blanked our word] area.

Turn to page 47. Please share the first sentence of the first full paragraph.
All must sing nonsense or no allowed college, no advanced physics and training.

Wednesday, 19 May 2010

A post in which I vent about the unfairness of it all

Sometimes life can just suck, well more like parts of it, but it still sucks. So one of my biggest frustrations right now is my weight. I figured once we knew what was behind the sudden and constant gain it would be sorted out, but it's not. The worst is I didn't eat myself into a state of 18kg's overweight - well 18kg's over the ideal weight for my shortness - so I was hoping that you know maybe just as I'd magical gained it, it would leave, but no. I have to do all this hard work to get rid of it, which just plain sucks. I didn't get to overindulge and enjoy getting to this horrid chubby-stick-out-tummy where people look at me and ask if I'm in my first trimester - which is just mean.

Then we've got the horrid job hunt. There is only so much rejection you can take without feeling like a failure. And I swear sometimes Jerall being all nice and understanding about it makes it worse. The worst is that while I've got all this going on, that seem like these huge, insurmountable issues going on, I've friends/people I know going through shit storms. Which of course makes me feel worse for being so petty, worrying about a job when friend D faces death every day and spent 10 minutes staring at someone he had to kill - he's in the British army; or that friend P's family is going through the crappiest financial shit every. So yeah...things are just unfair.

Monday, 17 May 2010

The weekend

For the most part our weekend was chilled out, yours? Except for Friday. The property we're on has 4 families - landlady and 3 renters - and 7 cars on the inside parking. Yip 7 cars, although 4 belong to the landlady, her husband and 2 grown children - 26 and 31 - who still live at home. So parking is pretty tight. However one of our neighbours believes she's special and always, always has her friends park behind her, which means we always need to ask them to move their cars. That bugs me soo much, they shouldn't even park on the property. But on Friday she went out with friends in another car, and still had someone parked behind her :-/ It took us forever to get out. I left her a rather nasty voicemail, haven't seen her yet, but I'm looking forward to having words with her. She's the same cow who leaves her laundry on the shared line for 3 days in a row.

Friday evening wasn't all bad though. We played glow-in-the-dark putt putt with some peeps, then we went bowling. I bowled my first ever strike :D We'll I got 2 strikes, but promptly followed it up by having the worse score, oh well. Saturday was coffee with friend L, who shared some big news with me...she's in love :) It might not seem like big news to you guys, but it is big for her.

Hope you had a good weekend.

Wednesday, 12 May 2010

Thoughts on yesterday

So the interview yesterday afternoon was an hour and a half long, one of the longest I've had. A very important piece of information emerged during it. They want a two year commitment to staying with them. I'm not sure if I mentioned this before, but the company I interviewed with is the same company that Jerall works with. It seems that because we moved here for the job that he is a 'high risk leaver', so from there perspective a two year commitment rocks...they can invest more into him for their benefit. That part really sucked, because during the interview it became crystal clear to me that I'd be used by them as a means to lock down their plans for Jerall. The one lady even went so far as to tell me that what they plan for him is the opportunity of a lifetime, not so subtly implying that I'd be a bad wife for not going along with their plans, should I get the job and decide not to take it. Naturally that doesn't sit well with me. No one wants to feel as if there ability to get a job hangs on who they know and what that relationship can bring the company.

The biggest issue for us is two more years in Durban. Seriously?! We were chatting about it last night and it boils down to this: yes, we know a fairish number of people here, some are friends, some acquaintance/friend, but none of them are people we feel we'd be able to call in the middle of the night to help with an emergency. After being here for 2.5 years that pretty much says it all for me. Maybe we didn't try hard enough to meet people and fit in with the Durban scene, but given our hobbies we honestly didn't think it would be a problem. Maybe, I am being selfish in just wanting to go back to Cape Town, but I'm soo tired of not fitting in, not always knowing what people are talking about. I just want to feel like I belong again, that I know where places are/how to navigate my way around and most importantly to do more than call/sms/e-mail friends when they're going through stuff. This growing up business can be tough.

Tuesday, 11 May 2010

Quick update

The interview for the Durban job is later today. I'm not going with the dress, it's too hot for that material...so thin pants and short sleeved top it is. I've completed the editing test, actually started to enjoy it about mid way, I think it's a good thing :) Now to wait.

There's been tons of neighbour drama, pretty much confirming something I've been thinking of our landlady for awhile, so we'll be looking for a new place soonish - if we're not moving to CT ;) I read a Merry Gentry book, mid series, not realising it was mid series. Didn't quite think I'd enjoy something labeled adult erotica, but I love the faye world, so maybe it's not much of a shocker.

Best news of all, our current 3G contract is ending and it's freed us up to move onto something better :) Now we can get more anime :D

Hmmm that's about it, have a great day. :)

Wednesday, 5 May 2010

Decisions, decisions

Why is it that something that should be relatively easy isn't? As you know I've been on the job hunt patrol for awhile, fortunately things have started to look good. I have an interview next week for a job where I'll pick up an entirely new set of skills. It's nowhere near anything I've ever thought of doing before, but it is a great opportunity to finally start making some money again. Bad side, we'll be in Durban for at least another year. Good side, if I get this job, after being there for a month or so we could afford for Jerall to take a month's unpaid leave to work on his thesis. So this job in Durban has been part of the rough plan for a bit and then yesterday happens.

Yesterday I received an e-mail informing me that I've been shortlisted for this amazing job. Amazing is an understatement, I'd be an editor at a large publishing house :D Attached to the e-mail was one very scary editing test, unlike any editing test I've done before. The problem is that this process is a long one, the test must only be submitted by the end of day on the 14th, by which time I will have had the Durban interview. Naturally I will go as far as I can in both processes, but now the over thinking is happening. What happens if I get offered the Durban job, rather a job in hand, or do I go for the dream? I say dream because the editing job isn't just in line with my skills, but it'll also mean moving back to Cape Town :)

Back to the hear and now, what should I wear to my interview next week? It's a fairly informal company so I think a suit might be a bit much, would a black dress be ok? The dress isn't a mini nor does it expose tons of cleavage. Thoughts?

Friday, 30 April 2010

Catching up and 02/05

So I've slipped back into that habit of blogging once a week :-/ Soon I'll get it right to blog more often. So the anniversary weekend got off to a bad start, Jerall missed his flight from Jhb to Dbn due to a pile-up, so he and his work colleague drove down on Saturday. On Saturday we watched Kick Ass, it's soooo cool, check out this review. Sunday was prezzie day :p Jerall got me Lips and a surprise trip to a spa for a hot stone full body massage, head and should and knee to foot massages. My gifts to him seem not as cool in comparison, but he did like them. Not having much cash did hamper my options a bit. I made him an apple crumble and tons of love vouchers. The one voucher I can share with you is for washing the dishes. J always tends to do them, as our rule is if you cooked you don't do them.

If you're wondering about the pic it's because it's Jerall's birthday on Sunday. Yes, we did get married a week before his birthday. We picked the date because of the spat of public holidays, it meant the most time off with the least amount of leave taken. I meant to put up a pic of just him, but alas we don't have any :-/ I'll try to rectify it at some point, but as both of us aren't photo people it'll be hard. For his birthday we're doing what we always do, I love traditions :) A bunch of friends and us are watching Iron Man 2 and having sushi for dinner. At first J's birthday tradition was friends and us having a sushi dinner, but ever since comic based movies started coming out close to his birthday it's been movie and sushi.

That's about it for now, have a great weekend.

Friday, 23 April 2010


On Sunday Jerall and I will be married for a year :) It was an awesome day filled with laughter and love, cliched I know, but true...it was really tricky for Nielen to get any pics of us not laughing or kissing.

Here are some of my favourite pics, Nielen has some more on her blog. And if you love her work and want to get hold of her try her Facebook page.

Happy anniversary love.

Thursday, 22 April 2010

Tuesday, 20 April 2010

Win some kick-ass stuff in the Monster MashUp Contest

Nevermet Press is running a great competition, you can win custom made dice, pdf's and an autographed copy of Open Game Table Vol 1. All you have to do is enter here and by writing a 300 word, or less, description or back story about the big guy above. So check it out.

Monday, 19 April 2010

When ninja monkeys attack

This morning the yard was filled with monkeys. They were acting all crazy and climbing everything, like monkeys do. They even started to climb through the gates to get into the cottage, but some shouting of "oye" got them out. They've since disappeared, but one can never be sure because as phazen pointed out, they could be ninja monkeys.

In other news, this week I'll work on doing more than one post :0 Also the awesome image is thanks to this person.

Wednesday, 14 April 2010

There's way too much time, and too little

I'm the worst self motivator in the world. Case in point I have a pretty long to-do list, but because the it needs to be done by date keeps on shifting, nothing gets done. The list includes:
*booking my learner's test, but I keep on putting it off because of the long waiting period and the fact that we might move
*getting more exercise, which I put off cos I have no one to do it with
*doing more with the online projects I'm involved with, this I put off because I feel I have nothing to contribute to them
*starting to learn another language - blame the funk
*work on my thesis - blame the funk
*sort out my "blogs i read list" aka blog roll - blame the funk

I've just been in this weird funk, and with no one to talk to about it face to face and say "Cassey, stop being silly" it's just hanging around getting in the way of me doing things. I hate that I'm becoming such a grumpy person when honestly, although things seem kinda crappy to me, I know that it isn't as bad as it is in my mind.

Sometimes I wonder if leaving that crappy-ass, stress myself sick job was the best move, but then I remember if I hadn't done that I wouldn't have been able to go with J to Jhb for the last few months of last year. Also that if I was still there I'd probably be sick as hell. Sounds like an exaggeration, but it isn't. I'm a worry wort of note, I get anxious easily all of which leads to stressing out about sometimes the silliest things. When I was at the horrid job I had eczema, a weird scalp thing that wasn't just on my scalp, but on my face too and the worst chest pains, which I was assured is all cos of stressing. I digress,I know that I sometimes miss the job because of some of the people there were great and it was an everyday social experience; something I really miss. Sometimes I'll go days in a room and not see a single soul I know, and for me it's pretty tough because I'm a social person.

The worst is whenever I think things are finally sorted, like after a promising job interview or us deciding we're just going to move back to CT by x date, something happens to change it. And the funk starts all over again. Then there's also realising that a really good friendship is over and working at not giving into the anger and calling her a b*tch via e-mail/sms/phone or her facebook wall. Seriously that part sucked, but in the process of not wasting my energy on things I can't change she's gotten off lucky.

Apologies for the downer post, tomorrow I shall be cheerful.

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