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Tuesday, 30 November 2010

The weekend that was

The weekend started a bit early for us. Thursday evening we saw RED, awesome movie, and had dinner out. The restaurant was playing some Boney M, that's how you know it's Christmas people bring out the Boney M :) On Saturday we went to the Good Food and Wine Show. It was awesome :P I got a cool gadget - for frothing and turning milk into thick milkshakes, uber delicious dark chocolate, yummy pesto and Atol Kochar's autograph :D It was a great way to spend the day, all the food and there was also the coffee from Colombo. Sunday was mostly lazy, but we did go for a walk at the beach.

How was yours?

Friday, 26 November 2010

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days

Given that my day 12 post was a short one I figured that another post is in order. Sadly this post will also be a short one, I don't have a favourite band/artist. Although when the grumps do hit, or there are chores to do I alternate between jpop, pop and musicals. My musical tastes are pretty electic from rnb,pop to musicals, dance and indie. That sad heavy metal and hard rock just aren't for me, soft rock though...bring it on :) My current must have cd's are: Glee The Music Vol 3, Vol 4 and Bruno Mars Doo-Wops and Holigans.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Thursday, 25 November 2010

An update

I got a phonecall about a job, the one I interviewed for six weeks ago. It turns out that the position was temporarily frozen, but the process is back on. I take it that I'm in the running because there is no other reason for them to call me, right? Then this morning I received a phonecall from Jerall's company, remember I worked for them for two months doing research. Well they need help with research again, and starting Monday I'll be working for them for 2 weeks. It wasn't the best job, but at least now I can buy Jerall a Christmas present and not make one like I had planned.

I forgot to do Word Wednesday yesterday, but it's all Eskom's fault. What's happening with you?

Wednesday, 24 November 2010

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know

There are some obvious choices for this, but if I didn't know them I wouldn't be me. Instead of got to let go of the almost always insecure me and the worry wort me. Which I suppose would lead to me not being me anymore as I am now, but we're all always growing and changing so it'd be ok.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Tuesday, 23 November 2010

Day 9: Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted

Three people came to mind for this topic. All three were really good friends who just disappeared from my life. They didn't respond to sms', phone calls, e-mails and facebook messages. Actually all three displayed pretty shitty behaviour and I shouldn't let the drift bother me any more.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

I am my own worst enemy

So J's been grump lately and yesterday he finally let me know why. It was because we hadn't achieved anything this year, he basically feels like we just existed this year. Thinking about it, it's true and a lot of the non achievement is my fault. When I started looking into the moving to Canada stuff, there was a minor bump and I stopped working on it, same goes for the starting our own business plans. I got into the research, we realised how much it would take and then I dropped the ball. Clearly that chat made me feel rather crappy, cos I had let us down. Just to be clear that was not J's intent at all.

The sharing free for all finally got me to tell him stuff that I've kept from him and friends for months. I'm jealous of him getting to go to work every day. The 14 months of job hunting and rejection after rejection is taking a big emotional toll on me. My usual way of dealing with the shitty, non happy/cheerful emotions - burying them under the happy/cheerful Cassey cover isn't working anymore. I know it's not working because anything remotely sad starts me tearing up in an instant. Some days just getting up and getting dressed feels like a big deal, but I don't let anyone know because the voice at the back of my mind keeps on telling me that no one likes a sad person, they just wanna hang out with happy people. I know that, that voice is a disservice to J and my friends, but it's hard to ignore that voice. Basically my plan was be sad during the day, but don't tell anyone when you chat to them, and be damn sure to not show J when he gets home.

So that's been going on, but I'm going to change it. I'm working on getting better at self motivating and being more open about stuff.

Monday, 22 November 2010

The weekend that was

The weekend was supposed to be busy, but it wasn't. Aside from lounging around at home, grocery shopping we did get in some gaming. There was a level one Pathfinder game to introducing people to table-top roleplaying at the war games club. There were six new players signed up, but only two showed :-/ It was still fun though.

How was your weekend?

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell or treated you like shit

So there was/is my mother and various people through high school and the start of university who I thought were friends, but really just people who were good at making me feel the worst I could. Even though there are those people, I must admit that the one person who treated/treats me like shit the most and worst is me. And really it is something I've got to stop doing. On the plus side I don't do it as much anymore, and I have gotten better at standing up for myself so that others can't do that to me anymore.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Friday, 19 November 2010

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do

I know that today already has a 30 day challenge post, but because I forgot to mention that I'll be offline tomorrow here's an extra post. I'm offline tomorrow - hopefully only tomorrow - because the usb ports aren't working and it needs to be sorted out.

Something I hope I never have to do is bury Jerall. I've got to go first or we die at the same time. There is no way I want to be in a world that he isn't in. This will probably move to second spot on the "I never want to do" list when we have children, but for now this is it.

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

There is so much that I want to do, that just mentioning one is not possible.
  • I want to study further, well restart and finish that MA, then do a PhD. Take a course in philosophy and sociology.
  • Go to cooking school. I think I'm a pretty competent home cook, but I want to be able to do more.
  • See the world, more specifically Japan, Ireland and the parts of Europe not on my food tour list.
  • Go on a food tour to France, Italy, Spain.
  • Move back to Cape Town, and then decide if we want to leave SA.
  • Get a puppy.
  • Expand our family of two to three, maybe four.
  • Be an awesome investor.
  • Own at least one property of my own. Yes, J and I will buy property, but I want to buy my own. It'll prove that just because we were an 'us' from when I was 19 and that I hadn't gone off and done things that it doesn't stop me from still doing things on my own. Does that make sense?

Word Wednesday

I don't think I even need to put up the meaning for today's word, it's easy peasy :p

  • the last but two
  • before the next to last
  • third from the end
  • two before the last
  • the third last
So we have penultimate, antepenultimate and preantepenultimate. Yip in the English language there are single words to describe: second last, third last and fourth from last :0

*Hertnon, S. 2008. From afterwit to zemblanity. Auckland:New Holland Publishers

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

For the regular readers or those who know me, I'm pretty sure you knew the answer to this one when you saw the title. I have to forgive my mother for all the cruel, hurtful things a mother - or any person - should say to a child. I know that I have to forgive her, but I'm not ready for it. I don't know when I will be or if I will be...I'll just have to wait and see.

The weekend that was

Awesome title thanks to Megan. Time in Cape Town is always awesome, and surprisingly even the family events were ok. The newly acquired brother-in-law - we've meet before, but didn't get to really chat - is a nice guy, has similar tv and movie tastes so easy to talk to. The not so nice parts of the trip was seeing how much more animatedly C [Jerall's brother's wife, not his sister. Yes, the 3 'daughters' in the family all have names starting with a C] about her pets than her 3 and a half month old son. She just seemed so disinterested in him, is the fact that she's sick, Noah's sick grumpy and in a new environment a good enough explanation for it? It just bugged me how everything that had to happen for him/because of him seemed a hassle for her. But since being pregnant all her health issues have been worse, and she does/had depression so maybe it's just post-natal depression. I'm trying really hard to not just think she's just not interested in her son. Noah is very cute, and I did get to hold him a few times so yay :0

Aside for the family stuff - where I always seemed over dressed, jeans and top, skirt and top, not just t-shirts - time was spent gaming and seeing peeps. We were in Stellenbosch for a bit and had brunch at my favourite restaurant followed by Italian ice-cream. All in all it was a good long weekend. How was yours?

Thursday, 11 November 2010

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

Right now the biggest thing is quitting my job when I did. Yes, Jerall and I discussed it, and we are doing fine financially, but if I'd just managed to put up with the crap for a few more months :-/ A few more months would have meant more savings, and moving to CT on our own steam. Instead I'm on this never ending job hunt, and still stuck in Dbn.

*Just a reminder there won't be a post tomorrow or on Monday because we'll be in CT :)

Wednesday, 10 November 2010

Day 2: Something you love about yourself

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

This one is turning out not to be as tough as I thought it would be :) I love that my default mood is a combination of cheerful and content. Yes, things get me down and I have my grumpy moments, but they don't last for ages. I can't maintain a good sulk, or anger for very long. To me it just seems easier to be happy than not. Is that strange?

Tuesday, 9 November 2010

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself

This is part of a 30 day challenge.

There's more than one thing that I hate about myself, but I think the biggest one is that I care about what people think of me or rather I want everyone to like me. I know it's dumb, not everyone will like/get along with everyone else, but I need to be liked. There's a long list of why I think like this, but what I need to do/am working on is trying to not have others opinions matter...or more like not matter as much as I tend to let it matter. I think I'm getting there.


Yay, I be online proper again :) The netbook is cute, but the little keys aren't that cute. Basically we got a netbook to give us some more time to get an awesome gaming desktop, and because Jerall couldn't take my moaning about not being online anymore ;) In other news we'll be in Cape Town on Friday :) In CT we'll meet Noah, game lots and have lots of food, all bad for the lose weight plan, but still fun.

There is a 30 day challenge meme going on, that started with this lady. No surprise that I'll be doing it. It's not going to be 30 days in a row, more of a Monday to Friday thing. Here's the breakdown of each days topic:

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

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