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Wednesday, 23 June 2010

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I know I’m a terrible blogger, and it’s been awhile, but sometimes you just don’t feel like blogging. Anyway here I am again. What’s been going on well there’s work, and occasional gaming. I wish we had more people in Durban who gamed; it’s tough to arrange stuff then have people flake out. Work is so-so. As you know it’s for the same company that Jerall works for, and this is a way for them to keep him longer…if it works out. The past three weeks have been frustrating: the work I’m doing is hard to complete without access to information, which I don’t have and neither do they. Those people, who we weren’t already friendly with, suck. They talk crap and laugh about others all the time, and they don’t like Glee. I was listening to music for a few days, but the day I played music from the Glee soundtrack I get asked to turn it down, it didn’t bother anyone till then. And then I hear them laughing and joking about it, which really pissed me off. Worse I can’t say anything, because Jerall still has to deal with them. Did I mention that a good number of the people here do jack, while the rest work there ass off.

Good news my current dosage of metrofmin is going well, no higher dosages for me.

Back to the vent. I’m so angry with my mother; there aren’t enough words to describe it. And I’m upset with myself for believing her when she said she’d changed and listening to her when she told me what was going on with my sister. I should have known better, I was there, I went through it. My mother has taken to telling my sister she’s pathetic, stupid and throwing her life away. This is not something you say to an 18 year old, your child, or to anyone for that matter. I don’t know why it surprises me, all my life she’s told me that I’m stupid, that my friends – who are smart – aren’t my friends, they just want to be dumb for a bit, and that nothing I do is good enough. See I knew what she’s like and still I just left my sister there. When they started having bigger financial problems Jerall and I said we’d sort out my sisters schooling etc, and at that time we wondered if maybe she shouldn’t just live with us, but decided against it. And now it’s like why did I decide to do that, I know what she’s like. And I was lucky, only seeing her on weekends and school holidays; I lived with my aunt and uncle for high school. My brother also lived with an aunt and uncle for some of high school, so he missed some of it too. Now I just need to remember like I told my sister, it’s only 6 months of school left, then she can just leave. And hopefully we’re in Cape Town by then and we can take it from there.

Thanks for the vent. I’ll be more cheerful next time.

  1 comment:

  1. Sorry to hear about the family drama - it sucks. Glad you are back though :)

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